Hello lovelies.. It's been a long time.. over a month since I posted anything. I've been struggeling.. loads.. with myself, my creativity.. not feeling like doing anything. Not finding the pleasure in hinding out in my scrapbook room like I used too. My scrapbooking is my sancturary. A place to hid from the stuff going on around me.. and there's loads of stuff going on. I have a.. let's say a difficult family life. I don't keep it a secret because I think that knowlegde gives you more understanding of how things are. My oldest son as ADHD and Aspergers, witch again leads to the difficult family life. Just dealing with the everyday things has been hard lately.
My creativity left me 1,5month ago.. a long with my self-confidence about the projects I make. They say that You are the worst critics to yourself. Believe me.. I truly am the worst critic. I take everything very personally when I do something. Like when I'm out taking photos. I can blame myself for the rain - if it rains. I know it's not my fault.. but I just do.. and then I don't sleep for days because I'm not happy with the things I made or the photos I took. So I stopped making stuff.. I wanted to make things.. I just couldn't.. I would sit at my desk an shovel the papers around me. I could cut into something only to not get anywhere with it. I questioned everything I did.. Still do.. And I felt really sad about it.. beause this is my lifestyle. This is what I love to do. So I cut myself away from everything scrapbooking as well.. I haven't been visiting loads of blogs, keeping up on facebook. Just went to my desk to work, turned of the lights and left it like it was at night.
I push myself to make something now.. Even though I know it's not amazing or it isn't the best I've ever made.. But just to make something and maybe it will come back to my finger tips. So I've made something small today.. It's for the new
Scrapberry's challenge this month and it's all about Kids. You an make a card for small friend, scrapbook with kids or make something for a kid like I did.
I made this little notebook for my son to practice his ABC's. He just started 1grade in August.
I even covered a pencil with the same paper as the book. I've used the "Forest Friends" collection from Scrapberry's on my little notebook here. Hopefully my son with like it to..
If you managed to read my rantings on the top, I would like to thank you for it. I'm not fully back I would say.. but I've made something now.. More than I have in ages.. Thank you so much for reading this and stopping by!
Hugs to all!